About 10 weeks into my 12-week maternity leave, I decided that going back to work full-time was not the right choice for our family. Before quitting, I asked about flex-time, part-time, job-share ... none of these options were available. My only hope? Contract work. In order to do this, I would need to officially leave the company and get re-hired through a 3rd party agency to become "project" status. So right before my maternity leave officially ended, I officially quit and let everyone know that I was available for projects. "Call me!"
So while waiting, I have enjoyed being a Stay-at-Home Mom. My favorite part is that I've really gotten to know my son and that we have truly bonded. These last 7 months, I've learned to become the baby whisperer. At first, I could never understand what he wanted and what I should be doing. I grew frustrated with him, and trying to get him to take naps would wear me out. I kept thinking about all the housework and chores to get done, instead of paying attention to his needs. When I look back, I'm amazed at how much I have changed. I know how to read his cues and how to make him giggle. To say I look forward to feeding him, playing with him, rocking him to sleep, and carting him off to swimming/music is actually the truth. I relish all the moments I have with him and I don't get frustrated by his antics.
Now, just as I am in a comfortable position, I've gotten the call to come back to work -- part-time from home -- so I'll become a Work-at-Home Mom. It couldn't have come at a better time, because now I feel so much more confident as a mother that I can do this.
I've hired a part-time nanny to watch the baby 3-afternoons/week while I work in the home. She's come over twice already to play with Wes and get used to "cloth diapering." It was hard at first. I kept checking on them, "Is he okay? Does he need me? Can I show you how I do XYZ." Yep, there are a few strings that need to be stretched (never cut). But I'm glad I can work again and be close to the baby.
It'll be challenging -- I still have time set aside for activities and I'll need to get more organized -- but we'll see how it goes. I start next week.